In the test of time, I found Him

By Nadiya (France)

There was a point in my life when I thought no one loved me so I started hating myself without realization. I couldn’t understand what was wrong with me. I heard people, whom I thought were my friends, saying bad things regarding me which I had never done. Then I decided that to move on, I had to leave certain people. That is when I decided to wear the Hijab. I always had a strong wish to wear it.

Whenever I saw Hijabi girls, I would say to myself that Masha Allah! I will be like them and please Allah too. I believed such are the people who remind us of Allah so I dreamed to be like them.

Most of us think that being born Muslims, our affection for the Lord is already great which is wrong. The more you learn about this beautiful religion, the more you love Allah.  So I gradually learned to love Him. I started questioning myself that if I really loved Allah then why am I not doing what He wishes of me?  Why do I still love this Duniya (worldly affairs) even knowing that the only reality is Akhirah (Hereafter)?  I understood that Allah removed some people from my life because they wouldn’t help in building my relationship with Him and now after all that time, I totally get it that He DOES love me! Everything I thought I had lost forever was replaced by something way better by His Mercy.

I stopped making excuses like “I am young”, “I still have time”, “yeah, someday?” I knew that wearing Hijab in France is quite difficult but Alhamdulillah, I firmly decided to do what He wanted because after going through so much, I realized that Allah always knows what is best for us. I had to attend university that year but couldn’t do so because of an issue with my passport and took a break instead.  Besides, schoolwork was a real “problem” for me. I took it as an indication, a sign from Allah that this is the right time to take the big step. So I finally wore the Hijab and it felt like a proof of the fact that Allah always decides what is best for us! He is indeed the best planner!

I understand that people may look at us quite differently but in the end, who cares about the people? Our true friends will love and accept us just the way we are and help us getting closer to Allah.

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Sisters, always remember to  be proud of your Hijab.