I am a Muslim revert from the Philippines. I was almost 17 when I reverted to Islam last year during the last day of Ramadan, alhamdullilah. Before I became a Muslim, I had faith issues. I stopped believing in Christianity due to many questions that popped up in my head that nobody could answer. I eventually gave up the idea of religion. I was almost at the edge of being an atheist until I found Islam, Alhamdullilah.

My family is devout Christian. I can say that my father is really against Islam, so I really have to hide it from them or else something might happen. Eventually, my family (except for my father) confronted me if I became a Muslim because they caught me praying at some occasions while wearing the hijab. I told them that I became a Muslim. They were so upset and told me so many bad things. They threatened me that they will tell my father if I don’t leave Islam. I was very afraid of that time so I told them that I will stop practicing Islam, but it is only to avoid any danger inshaAllah. Alhamdullilah, after what had happened, Allah has helped me to get through it. I only pray secretly as much as I can so they wouldn’t find out that I’m still a Muslim.

I’ve never been this happy and complete during my jahaliyyah (days of ignorance). Alhamdullilah Islam answered all of my questions. Knowing Allah is such a great honor to me and I couldn’t be more grateful to be one of His servants.

I am planning to wear the hijab in my university, insha’Allah. I know that this won’t be easy for me as it is my first time to wear it in front of everyone. I will be removing it when I go home, so my family won’t know it. Please keep me in your dua’a (prayer) that I can do it for Allah’s sake.

May Allah guide my family and the other non-Muslims as well to Islam, Ameen.

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I am a teacher and I live in a predominantly Christian country where Muslims are a minority. This reality did not hinder me to practice my faith. I confess that I have gone through many struggles just to wear the hijab. I started wearing it way back in 2009 when I was still in college. At first, I was so hesitant to wear the hijab because I was not used to it and I was studying in a Catholic university. Just imagine the struggle that a hijabi could experience in a Catholic community because she is differently and uniquely dressed. Imagine the stares she would get from donning the hijab. But Alhamdulillah (God-Graciously) my college days went meaningfully and peacefully.

I was able to find wonderful people who accepted me for who I am. I was even granted a scholarship (I came from a poor family) by the university. My professors did not treat me differently. I became friends with many students even though I had different beliefs than them.  I occasionally got annoying and wondering stares from several students which I simply ignored. I did not tell them that I am a Muslim, I just showed them that I was one by returning sweet smiles.

Then came the turning point of my life. After graduation, I started to look for a job. But unfortunately, I was not able to find even one for the various applications I had submitted. There was one school that openly disregarded me because of my religion. But this did not stop me from hoping that I would eventually land a job. Unfortunately nothing changed. So I decided to remove my hijab. It was not an easy decision for me. I asked my parents and we talked about it seriously. I even asked Allah’s forgiveness for doing so. And Alhamdulillah (God-Graciously) I landed a job. Don’t get me wrong, I’m thanking Allah not because I became free of the hijab but because despite of my shortcomings He did not forsake me. He still granted me the blessing to have this job that provides for my family.

Then on the day of Eid’l Adha (Eid of Sacrifice) in 2014, I came to realize that it had been one year since I gave up my hijab and how I felt incomplete without it. So I started wearing it again and I don’t want to remove it anymore. I promised never to make the same mistake again. Subhanallah (All Praise be to Allah), my students and colleagues wholeheartedly accepted this transformation. And I feel proud whenever I discuss about Islam and hijab during class. I feel complete with my hijab. It’s like the soul of my biological body. I feel so much respected and take pride in it. Thus, I feel empowered as a hijabi teacher.

I would be happy to read your comments about my story. Thank you all.

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