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I pray secretly in fear of my family
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I pray secretly in fear of my family

By May A.

I am a Muslim revert from the Philippines. I was almost 17 when I reverted to Islam last year during the last day of Ramadan, alhamdullilah. Before I became a Muslim, I had faith issues. I stopped believing in Christianity due to many questions that popped up in my head that nobody could answer. I eventually gave up the idea of religion. I was almost at the edge of being an atheist until I found Islam, Alhamdullilah.

My family is devout Christian. I can say that my father is really against Islam, so I really have to hide it from them or else something might happen. Eventually, my family (except for my father) confronted me if I became a Muslim because they caught me praying at some occasions while wearing the hijab. I told them that I became a Muslim. They were so upset and told me so many bad things. They threatened me that they will tell my father if I don’t leave Islam. I was very afraid of that time so I told them that I will stop practicing Islam, but it is only to avoid any danger inshaAllah. Alhamdullilah, after what had happened, Allah has helped me to get through it. I only pray secretly as much as I can so they wouldn’t find out that I’m still a Muslim.

I’ve never been this happy and complete during my jahaliyyah (days of ignorance). Alhamdullilah Islam answered all of my questions. Knowing Allah is such a great honor to me and I couldn’t be more grateful to be one of His servants.

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I am planning to wear the hijab in my university, insha’Allah. I know that this won’t be easy for me as it is my first time to wear it in front of everyone. I will be removing it when I go home, so my family won’t know it. Please keep me in your dua’a (prayer) that I can do it for Allah’s sake.

May Allah guide my family and the other non-Muslims as well to Islam, Ameen.

View Comments (3)
  • Masha Allah.. !! May Allah accept your struggles and give you strength and may even your friends and family come to the right path of islam by seeing you.

  • Y should u hide for praying u should not hide from this Islam veri peaceful n please don’t hide from praying Allah does not want u to hide he wants u to stand up for wat u believe so please don’t be scared or ashamed of who u r n wat u believe Allah will bless u n c u thru this u don’t worried.

  • Maa shaa Allah, you have been blessed with eemaan & understanding of the Deen at such a young age. Alhamdulillah. Auntie loves you and feel so proud of you. May Allah keep you safe and give you strength so you may persevere and remain istiqomah in the face of all adversities.

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